Collect call

Calling collect
Crying to God


God: “Hello!”

God give me strength for I am weak
I am living in a country with a government of greed and deceit.

Someone stole my bible and I have one no more
Its like law does nothing to protect all the poor.

Mom and dad fight for colors and now are divorced.
Dad’s facing charges and things can get worst.

I have nothing to eat and my tummy hurts.
“How will my mom fight for my life with an empty purse?”

I hear a campaign of blue and another of red’
Uniting people, that’s what they said.

I wrote you a letter and prayed it would reach
Mom can’t afford to send me to school and my dream is to teach.

I know I am young and I don’t know much but it is obvious the government doesn’t care enough.

Here where I’m from, I see many like me…

I sit at my table with nothing to eat,
the same white dirty dress and no shoe on my feet.

Where will my future go, when nothing is left???

It’s like all has gone private, I hear what the say…

How will I survive at least one more day?


Lord, please, please…

Take me away...

A Mute Tongue

Its all because I am wrong
I can't say things right.

The pain at my throat exhausts me
trying not to cry at night.

Its like suffocating under the ocean blue
dying for a chance to be with only you.

You are the butterfly whose wings I can't clip.

To be the nectar, the sweetness you can't sip.

Its as if I bear my father's curse but my shoulders never break.

I am he, the son, the secret of my mother's womb.

I am the closed casket, the son and the secret of a destined tomb.

Brain Pills

Why does life have to be full of emotion?

Its like everyday something happens that we can't explain then we eventually change our personalities and act weird from time to time.

I had a damn opening in my head and when I came to think of it, it doesn't even hurt a bit in comparison to losing someone's friendship.
I am so tired of waking up every morning and have to take my medication which reminds me of the many people I have lost. Sometimes I ask myself, is it just for now or does it mean I have no right to talk to them again. Do I even care, and why do I care? At times I write poems that express much of how I feel, yet day by day I feel less.

Have I become numb?

I don't know, I live everyday trying to accomplish something, though it feels like its taking eternity to complete; Its not ever hard...

Hinder Bliss (I Don't Wanna Know) Lyrics

Hinder Bliss (i Don't Wanna Know) Lyrics

*** Complimentary Bliss (i Don't Wanna Know)


(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)

I'll go ahead and pour myself a drink
I really couldn't care less what you think
Well I don't have to listen now
Live this day down
If I can't feel a thing
You might as well save your goodbyes
We can give this train wreck one last ride
I'm gonna have to listen now
Live this day down
If I don't make things right
I'll tell you one last time

I don't wanna know it's over
So save your goodbye kiss
I don't wanna know it's over
Cause ignorance is bliss
I can hardly see
What's in front of me
Cause the vodka's running on empty
I can't stay sober
If it's over
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
So save your goodbye kiss
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)

I woke up with my heartbeat in my head
I reached for the bottle by the bed
I saw your side was not slept in
Cold sheets again
Remind me of what you said
We need to take a break for a while
It's been so long since I smiled
[Bliss (i Don't Wanna Know) lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

I don't wanna listen now
Live this day down
With you so drunk and high
So I'll say goodbye

I don't wanna know it's over
So save your goodbye kiss
I don't wanna know it's over
Cause ignorance is bliss
I can hardly see
What's in front of me
Cause the vodka's running on empty
I can't stay sober
If it's over

I don't wanna know it's over
So save your goodbye kiss
I don't wanna know it's over
Cause ignorance is bliss
Now I know I can't stay sober
Cause you left me here like this
I don't wanna know
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
So save your goodbye kiss
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
Cause ignorance is bliss
I can hardly see
What's in front of me
Cause the vodka's running on empty
I can't stay sober
If it's over
If it's over
I don't wanna know
If it's over
If it's over
I don't wanna know

Smoke...

I have been looking out the window in different instances and for so many different days, all to consume the sent of the burning cigarette that almost never go away.
With no enthusiasm I have been moving around and taking along with me the memory of the early morning routine.
The Rushing to slip on my working jeans and the tending to the stove and the toaster at the same time, then rushing to check if the coffee is ready and finally to get myself in the pick-up truck seconds before my brother get tired of waiting on me.
Well, although I no longer have a crave for the cigarettes I bought a dollar worth yesterday only to remind myself of how happy I was while going to the ranch and sharing a pack of whites with my elder brother.
For that moment I took the first draw and I closed my eyes and as my lids closed there were vivid pictures that flew by and the many smells that attacked my nose brought sadness and emptiness to me, knowing that I am no where close to seeing my dad, my little brother Justin nor Jason. I can't wait till I go home and smoke a cigarette once again on my way to the ranch.

You are...

I look at you and yet you smile, we talk just as if we knew each other just a little better everyday and yet your actions make me question myself as if there was some thing wrong with me. Yes, you are beautiful and all that and you are smart just to add that fact that you are also responsible. In fact, I have no clue why it bothers me that you are yet so childish in your mind, you say so much with so little words. You have smoothly fitted ourself into a sock like I used to wear in my past. You are a like that kitchen fly trapped in the web of life. So with all that I say, try acting a bit human and don't let your accomplishments make you feel like you are invisible, the reality is you are just as good as anyone.

Who are you?

The Bridge

Suddenly, the gap to my understanding was bridged. I came to understand that we are who we are and though we are slaves to our own minds, we will never open up to anyone to the extremes what I can personally call trust. We all fear to share our deepest secret, we all fear to be known for our little habbits we routinely live for, we are all like portraits and frames. We are survivors in this arena called the "world." We have such disgusting tendencies to be hypocritical with friends but only to conceal our fears. I would say, be not my friend if I know not who you are, but then again, I am not perfect or open myself. I ought to believe that it is unrealistic for us to think we will ever know each other like we know the very spelling of our names. Yet, we create our own illusions and give light to misconceptions of love, we fail to understand that love is not beautiful in its creation but more life appreciated for the struggle of getting there. Till the truth of all secrets be revealed and we are forgiven, we are then accepted for whom we really are and if such divine expected action is done, we are all to be rewarded with love....

The question is, will we ever accept what true love really is and when will the trusting really start?

For with no trust there is no true love...