Lately I have been caught up in a film inside my head, where I am the character that is supposed to know everything that is going on. I know how to get away, I know how to be smooth. Sadly, my eyes mark every feeling my body doesn't express. My tongue spills every word of emotion that makes me depresses, bring disapointment or something else. Yet, my silence and determination has only brought mistrust to my own person. I am not feeling the same, my body is always tense and my hands have become swift to shield in defense. I have become less worried and less caring towards everything that does not include me. I feel much safer thinking and being more dependent on my decisions than I used to be. I fight for everything, I want to have everything my way.
At first I used to care about the well being of others now all I care for is loving myself and thats all that matters. At first i used to share everything about my life and now I share only with those very close to me. I don't feel trustful anymore nor do I want people to know me. I crave silence and music; emo I prefer.
"Is this a change for good of is it a phase?"
In my work place I have become more responsible, more confident of what I do.
Who am I and how long will the film last?
At first I used to care about the well being of others now all I care for is loving myself and thats all that matters. At first i used to share everything about my life and now I share only with those very close to me. I don't feel trustful anymore nor do I want people to know me. I crave silence and music; emo I prefer.
"Is this a change for good of is it a phase?"
In my work place I have become more responsible, more confident of what I do.
Who am I and how long will the film last?
